Will I be able to live until the day where everything in my life goes right?
Will I be able to fulfil my dream before going back to God's side?
Will I be able to die peaceful when the time is ripe?
Will I be able to leave the world without any regret?
Will I be able to stay alive until the end of the world?
Well nobody knows except God
But I still hope I will be able to know
So I don't regret the last moment in life
But if that's the case then life will not be that interesting as it is now

我已经变了
但是还是来不及了

What's harder than pretending to be not you? Tiredness has long overcome the will of mine to strive for a better choice but everytime I feel like giving up last strand of straw appear. Believing that it might be a chance to reignite the passion I had but disappointment always follow behind, extinguish the passion and throw me back to the choice of giving up.
What's life without hope?
I'm really tired. So tired of everything and everyone. Tired of needing to comply to everyone. Tired of being not myself. When would be the day that I can be myself the one and only one Denzell.

Sometimes all I need is someone to talk to.

A perfect memory

It has been a long time since her name was in the top of my conversation list. Looking back, she had been a pillar of strength to my life motivating me to propel towards my dream. I did not know how it happen or when did it happen but she has then left my life, leaving none of her shadow in the chapter of my life. I once wonder should I look for her but worries overcome the will of mine thinking I might be forcing her back into my life which our paths may not be fated to cross each other. A pure friendship between a guy and a girl which nobody believes has then disappear, evaporating into the thin air.
Reminiscing the past of ours, when we made phone call to each other accompanying each other when we are down, sharing stuff that make us happy and introduce stuff which either of us did not know about it. Sarcastic remarks made towards each other strengthen our friendship and has not once trigger a fight among us. People say that it is hard to find friend who can think alike so grasp it even though it is just a strand of straw which might break anytime. Regretful feeling has once overcome me while sitting in front of the laptop typing this passage, thinking why did not I take the chance while we have not drift so far yet.
Questions have been spinning in my head about her - Do she still remember me? Will us be able to chat heart to heart again? Will our friendship be as pure as last time? Only God has the answers to all these questions.

Ordered fried rice with salted fish to train myself facing salty people ✌️

It feels like you're walking out of my life as times goes by but I couldn't stop you. I can only smile and look at you leaving cuz I don't know how to make you stay.

As I close my eyes, flashback memories appear. Darkness starts to fill up leaving no trace of memory. Shining stars start to dim as the darkness engulfs the stars leaving no star shining.

A person can save lots of life but he is not able to save his life.
It so sad thinking about this but I guess it's worth helping others

Dndhnjdcslsdrds

        I don't know how this world works. I always thought that God makes everyone life fair by some aspects such as wealth, health and smartness. However, sometimes it doesn't work that way. Outside of the world you're living in, lies a lot of suffering and catastrophe making people unable to survive, getting pressured, discriminated and bullied. If someone, just one person, makes an effort to stop them, voice out their opinion, it will make people join force to help the weaker ones. But the question is, who will be the person to do that? Fearing of becoming abnormal and outcasted by the norm, people tends to ignore their feelings to help the weaker ones.
        To be honest, me myself did it before; not helping the weaker one when i can. Instead of helping the weaker one, I treat them badly. I regretted it but it's already too late as the harm has already been done. Bullying is never okay and I realised it too late. Stop bullying as bullying kills.
        Dont be jealous of what people have because what you have they might not have it. Don't be greedy and materialistic. Goods and stuff will not make your life better and it doesn't represent how wealthy you are. Share what you have with other people and some day you will gain twice or even ten fold of the stuff u shared.
       
#saynotobullying
#itsnotokaytobully
#bullyingkills
#savelife

When you're down,I tried to make you happy
When you're angry,I tried to calm you down
When you're confused,I tried to explain it to you
When you're hungry,I'll find way to ensure that you gonna eat
When you're tired,I'll be there to lend you my shoulder
When you're anxious,I say things to make you feel better
When you're happy,I'll be happy for you
When you're excited,I will make sure you are able to do it
Tell me
What do you want more?
The stray heart of mine asked
The confused heart of mine enquired
The broken heart of mine questioned

Feeling unwanted :(

Living for tomorrow, accepting the fate.
God please bless me and guide me through the obstacle that I'm facing.

When all you have is all you need but not what you should have.

Isn't it sad when you are used to getting hurt that you are able to say "It's okay. I'm fine. I'm used to it."

Give me strength to lead my heart to where it should go

Knife hurts but it makes you braver
Words hurt but it makes you courageous
Scar hurts but it makes you stronger
Failure is never one's obstacle but one's motivation in achieving success in life

Stop trying to pull me to you and push me away when I'm almost reaching you.

Say it and I'll jump down the cliff for you.

But I'm not over you....
But if there is somebody
that makes you feel happy
tends to your heart
in the way I've been lacking
then who am i
who am i to stand in your way 🎶

I know when he's been on your mind
That distant look is in your eyes
I thought with time you'd realize
It's over, over

There is no reason to give up 😶😶 If someone can do it,believe that u can also achieve it.

If your dream is alive, one day it'll come true 😘