不懂发生了什么事 我们从此不再那么好了 慷慨的感觉 希望能回到那时后的我们

I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered

Choked

It feels so depressing to know that I choked for the most important exam in the year. *Sigh* I don't even know how i gonna survive this exam.Damn it Fk this shit man . haish 

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I really hope it won't happen to all my next papers.Haish 

难道我那么不讨人喜欢吗?
是不是我太过不相信别人
还是我自己远离他们
不跟他们走的太靠近
我只是想要做我自己
难道真的需要伪装那不属于我的我吗?
我的个性就是这样的吗
难道要为了别人而改变自己?

비보

心累 心烦

It may seems like it needs a hundred or thousand people to do the job but if you have the will to do it,even with on your own you can get the job done by thinking a way to do it. That is why God made us with a brain 😛

First, you think the worst is a broken heartWhat's gonna kill you is the second partAnd the third is when your world splits down the middleAnd fourth, you're gonna think that you fixed yourselfFifth, you see them out with someone elseAnd the sixth is when you admit you may have fucked up a little

I dont know why but it seems like we are drifting further apart. Too much until I dont understand you now.I wonder what happen? 🤐

Emo (?)

I'm holding on....
Why is everything so heavy?

Why ._.

History is repeating when I'm least expecting for it.Some say learnt from the past and mistake can prevent history from happening again.However after few years it is proven for me that it doesn't work,not sure it's just me or for everyone. Is it because I'm not friendly enough or is it because of my personalities that make everyone doesn't trust.Hoping that one day I could find someone that I can tell all my sorrows from the bottom of the heart without hesistation.

Willpower in life

When life doesn't go according to what you plan,don't give up but try to think of something to turn the table around,making the situation according to what you wish it to be.Alternative paths are there for you to also reach the final destination but in a longer and more challenging way.When the main door closes,find another way to get out of the hardships, either by climbing out from the window or try to break the door to get out of the difficulty.Ideas are what humans create and are to go with it.Don't be afraid to go out of your comfort zone cause what lies out of your comfort zone may lead you to the end in a faster and less challenging way.When there is a will,there is a way isn't a hoax to coax or to comfort someone who fails.However,it is something meaningful,which is also the truth, in life where it is full of challenges.Don't laze around,thinking you cannot do anything.God created us with brain and limbs to think and to work out the ideas we thought and not to wait for it to rust.Trying to start something is already half the success.If you don't even have the courage to try,how would you succeed in life?

고생 끝에 낙이 온다

如果人生能从来，会不会更好？突然有不好的预感，怕会失败但有不想去努力。人生短短几十年，不努力难道等失败？어떻게?

Essay:Problems

          Everyone in the world has their own problem including you and me just that it's a small or big problem depending on how u see the problem.Well, since it's my blog,I'll write something about the problems I face.

        First and foremost,as a student most of the time i face problem about education.I'm currently studying A-level in Sunway college JB. At first,it seems that I have learnt before all the stuff that my lecturer taught but it doesn't seems so after my progress test.I scored a very low mark for my biology and pure maths and it's a score which i have never get before when I'm in primary or secondary school. Well, I guess it means that i have to study harder and not keep on playing and treat A-level as honeymoon examination. Time flies. 3 months has passed since I join A-level class and my SPM result is coming out in just 6 days time(from the date I'm typing this).I hope that my SPM result will not be bad as I thought(I literally doesn't have confident for it) and i seriously hope for a straight A+.Sometimes, I feel envious towards one of my friend called Steffan Song. He gets first in UK and scored 100 for pure maths *shocked face* . Well, I guess some people are just too smart and we cannot compare to them but I still have that mindset that hardworking will bear fruit. 

       Secondly,time. Just like everyone I wish there is 48 hours a day so that I could do all my work.All of my friends have already gotten their driving license except me although I started earlier than them.Not that because I'm a slow learner but I just don't have time to go for driving lesson and also for the test.My driving uncle literally rushed me to ask me to go for test as soon as possible as my learner driving lesson will expired this month on the 17th. I hope that I will pass the driving test the first time I go for it so that I have more free time to do my stuff and also to save money since my dad said if I fail I have to pay myself.I realised that I don't have enough time to study.Maybe it's because I don't listen to class so I need to read them by myself. LOL 

      Third,relationship problem.People always ask me:"You don't even have girlfriend how can you have relationship problem?" But I do have crush bcuz I ain't gay. They say crush is the reason why life becomes colourful and wonderful and I agree with it 99.9%. xD In my 18 years of life, I have 2 crushes - one during primary school one during secondary school - which only few of my friends knew.(accidentally let the cat out of the bag) The first one is the most amazing one although I didn't confess to her and I'm glad I didn't as it may ruin our friendship that time.She's one pretty girl to be honest and I was memerized with her beauty.We had a fun time in tuition as both of us are from different school - me from a boys' school and she's from girl school.We made noise together,eat together and chatted about life.Although now I don't really talk to her,we still maintain our friendship and we do follow each other on social media.I liked her for 5 years so I guess I really do like her,Sometimes,I regret not telling her that I like her.Maybe my life will not be so dull as now, not having a girlfriend even for once.The second one was 1 year younger than me.I don't know how I fall for her but she's one cute girl with baby's fat jkjk.She's kind and helpful but also sohai.To be honest,I don't regret liking her although during that period of time is a hell to me because she's closer to my best friend and I'm jealous of him(?). She literally told everything to her and skype with him(my friend) and not me but I guess I'm kind of introvert and my friend is an extrovert.It makes me feel sad and disappointing.But, liking her makes me become what I am,seeing thing in optimistic way.The second one was shorter,for 3 years.But I gave up on the second one after she had a boyfriend(broken up already)

     Last but not least,money.The problem faced by every teenager - not enough money to spend. Rm100 is supposed to be enough for 1 week but not this week.I spent extra Rm 26 this week because I went to eat good stuff with friend but I guess I have to tell him I need to cut my budget so that I don't go broke.Like what I said just now,if I fail my driving test I need to pay for myself and this will burn a very large hole in my pocket as the retake fee is the amount I have now.

     That's all I have to say I guess.Writing this post reminds me of the past and makes me feel better to let go something that I kept in my heart and I guess it does affect my mood.😩

😷

I feel so dumb.I couldn't understand what my mind is thinking and what my body wants.It just feel uncomfortable and weird doing something.Maybe it's the 6th sense of mine sensing a weird hormone imbalance.Am I falling for you?Or it's normal to have that feeling?